if im being honest about 2016...

if i'm being honest about 2016, it wasn't exactly what i had pictured it to be. looking back on all the shit that's happened, i have to admit there were great moments and and others are hard to recall. as common as it is, we all have bad moments and we typically tend to have those rule over the good memories.

i have gotten a lot more motivation and confidence in many different things like my writing, my photography, myself, and my dreams... i have also created plenty of memories with my best friend Luci with all those time we go on little adventures in New York-- the Highline, Union Square, and Maman Cafe are three of our favorite spots to execute our weirdness out to the public and they judge us harshly. as for anxiety, i'm slowly trying to cope with it one way being, ranting and raging with the use of words aka journaling or even drawing.

although confidence and motivation has increased especially as i get older, it certainly has taken a toll and some days it plummets down. i get urges of not wanting to talk to people and not wanting to go outside, sometimes i don't even try t cope with what i'm feeling because of the uncertainty of it going away anytime. as all friendships go, i have had my rough days with Luci which is truly disappointing ad dissatisfying to even think about as she makes me the most happiest :)...i know..cliche af :). i also barely go out anymore and don't initiate making plans with anyone resulting in my "take pictures of everything" game very very weak.

i'm not necessarily excited bout 2017 either and it's not specifically because of i'm not excited about the things i'd be doing this year, but more so because it genuinely doesn't feel like a  new year has been brought upon us; it just hasn't me yet, i guess.

as Kylie Jenner once said: "i've realized a lot of things" and here's to another year of realizing many more things!!!!xx

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New Museum Experimental (Fall) Study Program: Experience

I'm The New Museum recently held a program "internship" consisting of 15 people for the Fall season and Fall theme, "PERSONA." The program provided us with snacks, free shows, free pass to the museum, and the ability to speak out our minds.
I had an amazing time at the museum and met so many different people who love and will miss.

a few pictures to sum up my time there:

rainy day and view from the New Museum Sky Room

The following few pictures are my journey to and from the Museum.

May or may not have stepped into Brandy Melville one too many times.

Quite honestly, the best feeling is walking around in the rain.

An open road full of brick buildings and an awkwardly placed (and shaped) museum with a an awkward ship on it.

A cute store with food= Happiness

oh, hi Kendall...

Not gonna lie, THE BATHROOMS WERE COOL AF

AYYE

A few pictures of art that I took at the museum.

actual artists in training

ft. Alma

Hipster watching Indie.

!

These few pieces are made by Jim Shaw called, "The End is Here." They are
particularly just vivid dreams of his in which he noted down and created into a visual
art exhibition. They hold very much meaning to him and is open to interpretation. Everything
you see, you can think one way of whats its trying to show while others think
differently of it..ART.  

"heyyy angelll, do you ever look at us and laugh, when we hold onto the past?"
-One Direction

One of my favorite parts of the program and the museum is the view from the sky room.
This picture features the two coordinators of the program and an artist we worked with named JJ.

3:30 p.m

5:10 p.m

sunset

sunset ft. Katie aka Shailene Woodley

The cafe was a huge plus as well since they  sold aMAZINGLY AMAZING FOOD!!!!

I failed to get a good picture of the museum so enjoy a gingerbread-made
representation of it.

Snapping pics of people snapping pics of people.

cafenotokay.

On one of the days, after a "one night only" comedy-band-show, called Dad-Band,
Miso, Alma, Donae, and I decided to walk around Soho, eventually chilling on fire escapes,
and then walking towards Washington Square Park.

ft. Alma

Donae, or "Becky" started the whole show, and night.

A bit of filming of the performance.

A couple bold lyrics from our performance.
The Weeds in Our Backyard

We (the group) were the opening act for Wynne Greenwood
an artist working with music. Greenwood had created a "band" called: Tracy and The
Plastics a few years back and in the gap between then and now, she had taken a break from
music. However, on this day, she had made a "comeback," this time as Kelly.

Thank you to Wynne Greenwood and JJ for such an amazing 3 months!!x 

Towards the end, Westfeild, a sponsor for the New Museum program, invited a few students
from the Fall program and the previous program, along with a few friends, and Eagleson family
to celebrate the accomplishment.

I, of course, took Luci.

What some of the food was:

COFFEEEE

Snapping pics of Luci snapping pics.

So yes, that was it to pretty much sum up my experience at the New Museum. I loved every second that I spent there, and want to thank The New Musuem, Wynne Greenwood, JJ, Westfeild and the Eagleson family, and all of the people I met there, for such an incredible time. I love and will miss you all!xx

If any of you, who live in New York want to join or learn about this program, visit: http://www.gclass.org/node/1699