if i'm being honest about 2016, it wasn't exactly what i had pictured it to be. looking back on all the shit that's happened, i have to admit there were great moments and and others are hard to recall. as common as it is, we all have bad moments and we typically tend to have those rule over the good memories.
i have gotten a lot more motivation and confidence in many different things like my writing, my photography, myself, and my dreams... i have also created plenty of memories with my best friend Luci with all those time we go on little adventures in New York-- the Highline, Union Square, and Maman Cafe are three of our favorite spots to execute our weirdness out to the public and they judge us harshly. as for anxiety, i'm slowly trying to cope with it one way being, ranting and raging with the use of words aka journaling or even drawing.
although confidence and motivation has increased especially as i get older, it certainly has taken a toll and some days it plummets down. i get urges of not wanting to talk to people and not wanting to go outside, sometimes i don't even try t cope with what i'm feeling because of the uncertainty of it going away anytime. as all friendships go, i have had my rough days with Luci which is truly disappointing ad dissatisfying to even think about as she makes me the most happiest :)...i know..cliche af :). i also barely go out anymore and don't initiate making plans with anyone resulting in my "take pictures of everything" game very very weak.
i'm not necessarily excited bout 2017 either and it's not specifically because of i'm not excited about the things i'd be doing this year, but more so because it genuinely doesn't feel like a new year has been brought upon us; it just hasn't me yet, i guess.
as Kylie Jenner once said: "i've realized a lot of things" and here's to another year of realizing many more things!!!!xx
